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Happiness

January 29, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Happiness-state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

Something that i don't have. People think that I'm ignorant, other think I'm a different races. Seems like everybody has a problem with me. Doesn't satisfy people that I'm Black and Puerto Rican, or that I'm actually smarter then them and getting a better education. It's hard being a junior in high school now, You try and be a good person to them, but they walk all over you like the sidewalk. All good things must end and all bad things must begin..... loved that quote because its true. The only person I can be myself is Nikki. If I wasn't so far and if i had my license i would come see her. Close friends are the ones far away, and it usually take a few times for you to acknowledge them that they are your friends. Friends kill other friends mentally and verbally. Back stabbing seems to be their favorite way of getting their prey, and tongues like a sword that slashes at you. Your soul is always open and they continue to hack at it over, over , and over again. Seems like Ad Marquez  is always like that and he doesn't open his mouth. When your mother is right she is right, she told me, "Hector watch out for the quiet ones!" Did i listen to her no. Ad Marquez is quiet and he never has anything to say. His jokes are corny, no originality, always taking things that Me and Father Cuba say after the fact. I don't despise him I just wish he could be himself. That's the reason he got beat, because he wasn't being himself. Always running his mouth to the big guys of the crowd. Ha I chuckle to that, when we were "friends" he would tell us, "They know where I live..." sad and depressed then he would show us the text and we were like you'll be fine. No he always down himself saying, "No". Now he took the frog out of his throat his telling everybody he scared them away. Can you say Bs! When you lie it show your true character. Talking about him makes my blood boil! Calm is a state of mind and I think i have achieved it when I spit this out. Wish that it would rain, so i could tell him face to face how all his relationships with his friends end in failure. Then I'll walk away, with out a trace. 

Pacman J