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Believe That!

April 18, 2010 | No Comments Posted

When I was working today in my church, i had plenty time to think. Right now im going through a mental, and emotional downfall. (Those who know great, those who don't. Eh oh well) So I talked to Dante, my friend I've known for i don't know how long said that there was something wrong.

"Hector, what's wrong?"

"I can't stop thinking about her."

"Still?"

"Yes!" I replied, "She was more then a girl, more then a best friend!"

"Hector, if you can't stop thinking, how are you going to get anywhere in life? She will be fine there will be another chance down the road."

"I won't be here when that chance comes! I want that chance now!" I kept battling him.

"Look. You have to have patience. Are you happy for her?"

"Yes, I am but..."

"But what? Take responsiblity for your mistake and accept the fact that you screwed up. Your human and you can't help it."

I was silent, he was using my advice I had told him a long time ago.

"Hector, remembered what you said? To me."

I nodded my head, " No. What did I say?"

"Keep ya head up! There will always be another chance and there will be a time and a place for it! Never give up and have a good mind for that journey! Do you remember now?"

I looked up and was shocked. I was shocked to see that the answer to my question was in my words that were deeply in-rooted in my friend... He has been through it all. Break-ups, cheating girls, gold-diggers, the ones that always use you. I've helped him through it all and now he helps me. I was happy and I looked up and saw my hope and my faith. God helped both of us realize that. When I look up at the sky, I see two people. Alexa and Nikki. I founded out that Alexa was my inspiration, she gives me a sudden intuition. Like a angel that guides me through the day. Nikki is my motivation, she makes me reach a higher mentality, a higher purpose, and higher well-being. On the verge of passing out, in a game I was playing with friends, I hit the grass hard. Laying on my back, not moving a single muscle. Fatigued and mentally exhausted. I looked up in the sky and almost closed my eyes. As I squinted, I saw her face. I immediately rose on to my feet and felt energized.

Back to the subject at hand, we keep talking.

"So Hector what is next?"

"I don' really know...But all I know is that I have to move forward."

"Good, it's a start. Now when you get that license on Monday, come over to da house. Shoot, always telling me that there are good places to hang-out but never invite me."

I chuckled and laughed at him. Then i looked up to the sky and smiled becuase that's what Alexa wanted from me. Nikki would want the same thing too if she was standing right in front of me.

Life goes on, even if Nikki does find someone else. I show no hatred to her, as a best friend and as a older one =P ( Boy im getting old). I should support her and be a shoulder she will lean on. Isn't that what a true friend does? He goes out of his way and helps her? Yes, I agree whole heartedly.

Revelations 3:5

PacmanJ

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