Darkscribes Blog for Robert-33

Me. Whining. Alone. Unread.

July 30, 2009 | No Comments Posted

    As most will have heard by now, the swine influenza vaccine will be ready for general use in USA around October. Pregnant women, health care workers, and other 'high risk' categories are recommeded first candidates. The WHO has said that most nations will need to immunize their citizens against the disease.
    With all this positivity, along comes people like me. People with a less optimistic outlook.

    I see this situation going in multiple directions: one of them is that the some convenient disaster strikes, such as a famine, billions die, and everyone saves face. The second is that the vaccine goes ahead, it is administered to 100 million Americans, and following this, just as it has always been in the past, there will be an outbreak of a disease similar to the one the vaccine protects against. The convenient scapegoats will be the those who refused the injections, and perhaps illegal immigrants, along with a new strain of the virus. Will the vaccine get the blame? Heh, why would the savior be blamed? The vaccine being blamed is the third outcome, and the least likely.

    I am always right, except when I'm wrong. Mostly, I'm right but misexplained. Why can a vaccine induce the disease it is meant to prevent?

    Two reasons: the live compounds introduce the disease because IV injections are a foolish idea to begin, bypassing the body's defences. The second is that because the vaccine destroys the victim's immune system, they are suspectible to anything and everything their body encounters. In short, vaccination is like Darwinism: a nineteenth century idea which needs serious reanalysis. Both have been, and so far as I am concerned, both have come drastically short of their promises.

    It's a shame Nightmare Architect Mabase is both unoriginal and crap. Because if I'd written it as an original book, and managed to finish it about now, I could be the genius whom no-one listened to. My plotline about a mysterious plague inflicted by a vaccine was both original and prophetic. I am waiting to see what happens. It's macabre, isn't it? If people don't die, I'll be annoyed that I was very wrong. If they do die, I'll be annoyed that no-one listened and when no-one accepts that I knew exactly what was going to happen and wrote a story about it. They will consider me 'hateful' perhaps. A demagogue stirring up miserable people into violence? Bla, bla. I warned random people, so if they or their friends die, it's their own fault. They were too trusting.

    I wonder whether writing books can save the world. I don't think so. As someone said, 'the only people who can save the world are the Christians, they just don't know it.'

    It came to my attention that Alexander Solzhenitsyn died a while ago. He was a tragic figure. Someone who was the darling child of the West up until that fateful point where he gave the speech 'a world in two halves', which warned the Americans what was coming for them if they persisted in their rapid transition into an athiest state. He warned that, in a nutshell, they were going to turn into an overlegislated, Godless hellhole. I must ask whether they are not already standing at the threshold of his prediction. That speech practically finished his career in the West. Amusing that people enjoy stories about how horrible athiest Russia was, yet they reacted with anger when he declared that this was the true face of their shining future.
I realised with annoyance that I mispelt the name of his speech in N.A.M.

    If no-one listened to him, why would anyone listen to me? People don't want to be told the storm is coming. No-one smiles at the weatherman who announces a hurricane. Given this factor, why has the world so easily embraced the concept of 'man induced climate change'? I believe the answer lies in that, even more than being told good things lie in store, man enjoys being told that he, in his godlike power, has the ability to save the world and himself through his actions. It's undercurrent neo-paganism, pure and simple. When it comes to it; Paganism, Christianity - one has to go. And let me tell you, Hell will freeze over before Christianity goes.

    what does that make me? A faker, quite brutally. Someone who wears a mask to hide his true thoughts. Who communicates through formless ramblings filled with scattered razor blades. Who considers someone unwilling to listen past a rambling introduction an unworthy audience. A fool?

    So, when many are dead, and the world hasn't come to an end after all, I'll be shaking my head, saying 'told you so.'

    In other thoughts, I found a massive bug in T&A mere hours after releasing beta 3. Naturally, I've had to wait a week before fixing it. Also, I am seemingly unable to crawl out from the massive pit I dug for myself in the 'Why Genetic Programming is Barely Evolution' thread on Moddb.com. And the twisted irony is that I know perfectly well what I should say, just as I knew perfectly well how N.A.M. should have been written; my incoherency and rambling get in the way, along with the fact that 90% of what I say is blatantly misunderstood. Ah, such is life.

July.

July 9, 2009 | 1 Comment

    Well, I've been re-inventing myself, in a way. I have a recurring realisation, yet maybe it's just paranioa, that Nightmare Architect Mabase is just rambling rubbish. Then I remember that much of it is factual, which is even more depressing. So far, zero people have commented. Seriously, if you actually either like or hate the story, just email me, leave a comment, or just say SOMETHING. I'd much rather be bashed than ignored.

General Robert-33 mumblings.

May 28, 2009 | No Comments Posted

    I think a lot about this whole 'kids with
cancer' fiasco. Many might want to punch me for
this, but think it over: people trust in
scientists to find a 'cure' for leukemia and
all the other saddening diseases suffered by
all humans.
    Perhaps I'm wrong, but I cannot think of
a more pointless exercise than trying to
'cure' cancer.
    These, as I understand them, are some
facts:

    Childhood vaccinations are a major
cause of cancer. This is actually not
even worth disputing: the preservatives
used are carcinogens, much less the rest.
    Microwave ovens cause cancer in far
greater quantities than appreciated.
    Wheat, in all its forms, is known
to cause cancer in certain individuals.
    Fluorescent lights, if uncovered,
cause melanomas.

    If you have cancer, find a doctor,
note their coordinates, then run in
the exact opposite direction: people
have suffered enough with the many
debacles of the medical profession.
    I think of AZT, which killed
everyone who used it.
    It's difficult to figure out which
is more tragic: that people die of
cancer, or that they are killed by
the very system which is supposed to
be curing them.

    But, anyway, I can't decide if
it matters. People are free to give
their money to whomever they please.
    Just sad that they'll all die
of a disease that isn't cancer.

    People have a faith in medicine
which is staggering, to be frank.
No matter how much it fails them,
they still return, hoping for healing.
    It's a case of accepting things
merely because they existed before
us, most likely: however, if it
actually conflicted with personal
interest, the story would be
different....

    On an even sadder note, I was
informed by a medical acquaintance
that, during a trip through Europe,
a girl who was on another team
fell ill with Meningitis. She is
now brain damaged.
    He agreed that it was likely
that she had developed the condition
because she had taken routine
vaccinations before travelling:
he pointed out that travellers
should never be vaccinated, as
the vaccines destroy the person's
immune system, rending them
susceptible to any and all diseases.
    Quite why she should have taken
the shots in the first case is
something he agreed was difficult
to define. He mentioned that his
son had developed a back tumour
after an influenza vaccine a
few years ago.
    It's interesting that more
cats die of cancer from rabies
vaccines than cats die from
being bitten by rabid animals.
The ratio of deaths to shots
is 1 to 10,000.

    When this all explodes, I'll be
able to sadly shake my head and
say, "Told you so."

News.

May 7, 2009 | No Comments Posted

News, May Blog 1, 2009:

First up, it's rotten how someone felt
the need to hack darkscibes. Condolences
to Tom.

    Well, after serious, drastic, in-depth,
re-invention, Robert-33 has launched into
solid development and authorship.

    Nightmare Architect Mabase is tightening
with the release of part 6, so I hope. The plot
seemed frenetic and shattered beyond recognition
of what some exclusive previews of part 1
demonstrated. It is true that Crystal Dawn turning
into a girl and 'dancing around the universe killing
people' as it is so eloquently put was a little...odd.

    But, anyway, releasing Part 6 within a reasonable
time-frame proved a nightmare of sorts: in fact,
the part was undergoing frantic last revisions within
the last hour before the text was given to the
proxy for immediate uploading.
    It's largely to do with the fact that each part
is written in about an hour or so, but actually
finding a spare hour is a problem, much less
finding time to proofread the work.

    There is a lack of communication from readers.
I take it that there are quite a few regular readers
of the story: not a great number, but 'could be better'.
Perhaps this has something to do with my not putting
an email address on the stories: but my email is
included with my profile, therefore that is little
excuse.

    Where is N.A.M going? That is a secret. But
there is a definite goal to this plot, even if
some die before they see its outcome. Haruko and
Rothem - there seems to be a tension between them.
After all, Haruko has had up until this point a
degree of control over Naota on the merit of the
fact that she is a very persuasive, charismatic,
seductive girl. We have learnt that Crystal Dawn
had a quite disturbing facet to his personality,
in that he he waits eagerly for the complete
destruction of humanity courtesy of the
first and last ultimate world leader, aka. The
Antichrist.
    N.A.M.'s and S.W.V.'s parts are actually in
serious need of revision. There are many small
text errors: invalid tenses and such.

    Searching Wounded Valentine was a move in a
different direction - it's hard to describe
exactly what the ethos of the work is. But
it is a change from other Robert-33 work.

    Humanity Contemplations was improved by
the addition of Part 2. This marked the
re-invention of Robert-33, a new, more determined,
more knowledgeable, enigmatic figure. It was suggested
that Robert-33 'post-Vangor' is actually a different
person to 'pre-Vangor aka. 2005-2008 & early 2009'.
It is left to you to decide.
    What is the meaning of Part 2? It is complex,
and perhaps would make good music lyrics. But
beware, hopefuls, the entire body of part 2 is
actually a carefully woven minefield of very hated
political and sociological opinions. The opinions
themselves are amazingly peaceful, but I am
fairly certain that if 'Not what you think' got
into the American Top 40, and then people learnt
what it is about there would be venom to spare
from certain someones. (Of the 'bring back the
lions' variety, I'm told.)

    And The Eva Verses...they are still on EvaFanFics.org.
I am contemplating bringing them over to Darkscribes as
a single unit, saving Tom having the latest releases list
being inundated with Volume 1,2,3,4,5,6,7.
But I will see what happens. There does exist a eight
volume of the Eva Verses, intended for release
December 2008. It was never fully shown to ANYONE.
A section, Valentine's Day, was used in Humanity
Contemplations.

    In other areas, development on the Far Cry
total conversion 'Perfect Dark - The Ancient Pathways'
has begun. Things are proceeding nicely, one is willing
to view 'slow' as nice. A technology demo release is
planned for September 2009 at the earliest.
    In an interesting twist, this shows that Robert-33
may be very slow to respond, he comes through in some
unrecognisable form eventually: The mod is actually the
'evolution' of 'Evangelion slash Perfect Dark', a story
he was in the process of writing back in 2006. The story
was never released, and although it has been made clear
that almost no-one actually understands the concept
of evolution correctly, the mod is 'changed through a
shift in environment' As in that it could not exist as
a Perfect DarkEvangelion book, yet it will survive as
a videogame which, in true natural selection has lost
most of it's Evangelion content.

    "HUH! MOST OF IT'S EVA CONTENT? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?"
    "Heh, that's another secret."

    That's all until next time.

    Robert-33.

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    "The me you see, you will not see.
    "I'll waste away so elegantly.
    "All the while a victim of my own
elaborate scheme."
    (Humanity Contemplations, Vol 2)

Am I the only one who blogs apart from Tom?

April 23, 2009 | 1 Comment

Anyway. Had massive setback when formatting was stripped, making HC2 and SWV almost
unreadable. Sorry all.