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My Girl

By: PacmanJ | Posted: February 27, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Beauty- an outstanding example of its kind

This month has had its ups and down, but the best up in the world is my girl.=) Now all of those haters ,in North Carolina, said it wasn't possible for Pacman to get and keep a white girl. Damn lies!!! I want and I will get this one girl. To be sure to paint a picture in your mind.

This girl is 5'4. With silky black hair, smooth skin, brown eyes that could make my knees buckle. Nice bust for her size, may be little but sure packs a punch. I've dreamed about her and being with her for quiet awhile. Felt like the heavens have come, and hell is gone away. Like God dropped her off for me to take care of that beautiful angel. She makes all the other girls look like they have no class. Is this love? Have I been struck over her?

 Now i feel that we have move pass that best friend stage. More like Close Friends. We act like were 21 years old one day. Another day we act like were 5 or 6. Just Perfect for me, and remember. She is my precious diamond. Like my fine wine, out of Italy.

I think you get the picture, she is my girl!! =)

Dreams

By: PacmanJ | Posted: February 23, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Dream-a series of mental images and emotions occurring during sleep 

Well dreams can have a huge impact on people.( Yes, Everybody knows that.) I had two nights ago, with my best friend(beautiful young lady). I remember the dream vaguely, It was me and her, sitting down on my couch. I could get out of the house,so she came picked up her present. I asked her to stay, she did. We sat on my comfy red couch and she unwrapped her gift. She opened it up and there it was. Aqua blue lingerie with black lace, might add black high heels. My parents weren't home that night, i guess they had an important meeting to go to. At 8 at night, yeah, my foot. She asked me where the bathroom was at i told her the directions, and she disappeared. I was watching TV when i see her, in her birthday present. I froze with shock and she walked slowly toward me, I didn't know what to do. She collapsed in my arms and you can finish the story. I woke up in a cold sweat, my socks on the ground, and my shirt tossed over the bed post. I made sure that i wasn't dreaming any longer, pinching myself, and realized this dream was serious. I thought about it yesterday and thought about our relationship...We had an inseparable bond, like a electric current that can't be stopped, and she is something more to me, then anyone else. No lie, i would be there for her, regardless of my condition. As I though about it today, I it can't believed it happened. I guess my feelings toward her have changed...Things wont be the same, no other emotions can justify how that dream appeared. Other then that this day had been boring. I wish it would rain one more time...

PacmanJ 

Spammers! ARG!

By: Tom | Posted: February 10, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Well, it seems that even the best protection methods seem to be able to be bypassed by spammers.  Yeah, Darkscribes got some comment spam posted.

In the past, we never has a problem with spam since we are using WordPress's Akismet to screen out comment spam but it seems that they found a new way to get around it.  Thus, I have added a new option to the system to not only allow admins to be able to delete comments but also to report those comments as spam so that Akismet can learn about new spam.

The report of my death was an exaggeration...

By: Ikarus Onesun | Posted: February 4, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Mark Twain, 1897...

Sadly, since the last time I checked in with you all, the reports for two others in my family circle were accurate... 

I was prepared for the short-term grief - it was the long-term numbness and depression that I didn't see coming until I had to literally be shaken out of it...  And the downturn in the economy wasn't much fun, either.  I have, thankfully, been able to keep working at my chosen profession throughout the craziness, but I haven't been able to be as selective about the assignments I take as I have been in the past.  Nothing to cry about though... at least I'm still keeping a roof over my head and food on my table - more than I can say for others I know.  At least, after long last, things are starting to get a little better...

So, I'm slowly feeling my way back into the writing game.  No promises on when anything new may be coming, but my level of interest has risen in the last little while (and thankfully, the interest from those people who are still reading my work, such as it is, seems to be at least measurable).  For a long time, I just haven't felt the itch - there was too much to do, and too little time, and far too little motivation.  But unfinished things have always bothered me, and I have a rather large, ungainly, sprawling pseudo-epic that is floating aimlessly out there like an empty hull tied up in an old, rusted-out shipyard, waiting to be fitted out with masts and salis, and lines and pulleys, and brass and mahogany... waiting patiently to be completed.  Because half a ship isn't a ship, just like half a story isn't a story...

I think it's high time I got my feet wet again, and made an attempt to get the old girl ready for her sea trials.  Stay tuned.

The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places.

Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell To Arms

Cheers,

IO

Happiness

By: PacmanJ | Posted: January 29, 2010 | No Comments Posted

Happiness-state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.

Something that i don't have. People think that I'm ignorant, other think I'm a different races. Seems like everybody has a problem with me. Doesn't satisfy people that I'm Black and Puerto Rican, or that I'm actually smarter then them and getting a better education. It's hard being a junior in high school now, You try and be a good person to them, but they walk all over you like the sidewalk. All good things must end and all bad things must begin..... loved that quote because its true. The only person I can be myself is Nikki. If I wasn't so far and if i had my license i would come see her. Close friends are the ones far away, and it usually take a few times for you to acknowledge them that they are your friends. Friends kill other friends mentally and verbally. Back stabbing seems to be their favorite way of getting their prey, and tongues like a sword that slashes at you. Your soul is always open and they continue to hack at it over, over , and over again. Seems like Ad Marquez  is always like that and he doesn't open his mouth. When your mother is right she is right, she told me, "Hector watch out for the quiet ones!" Did i listen to her no. Ad Marquez is quiet and he never has anything to say. His jokes are corny, no originality, always taking things that Me and Father Cuba say after the fact. I don't despise him I just wish he could be himself. That's the reason he got beat, because he wasn't being himself. Always running his mouth to the big guys of the crowd. Ha I chuckle to that, when we were "friends" he would tell us, "They know where I live..." sad and depressed then he would show us the text and we were like you'll be fine. No he always down himself saying, "No". Now he took the frog out of his throat his telling everybody he scared them away. Can you say Bs! When you lie it show your true character. Talking about him makes my blood boil! Calm is a state of mind and I think i have achieved it when I spit this out. Wish that it would rain, so i could tell him face to face how all his relationships with his friends end in failure. Then I'll walk away, with out a trace. 

Pacman J

Jailbroke my iPhone

By: Tom | Posted: December 31, 2009 | 1 Comment

So I decided to bite the bullet and jailbroke my iPhone.  I downloaded blackrain and jailbroke it.

I instantly installed Backgrounder on it and seriously, why doesn't Apple officially allow multitasking on the iPhone 3GS?  I mean come on, I had three apps running in the background (Trillian, SimplifyMedia, and Facebook) running at the same time.  Now a slowdown in sight.  The iPhone was responsive as ever.

Been a while...

By: Matrix Refugee | Posted: November 15, 2009 | No Comments Posted

I've been neck deep in NaNoWriMo, the National Novel Writing Month challenge, so I haven't had much time or impetus to cruise over here: I decided to dedicate this year's NaNo to the third section of my Evangelion fanfic epic, Neon Enoch Evangelion, which has been a blast to write. At the same time, I'm fighting off killer plot bunnies for other fics, particularly a cracked TwhinelightTwilight/Yami no Matsuei (aka Descendants of Darkness) crossover. The folks on one of the anti-Twilight comms on LiveJournal concurred that having Edwierd the Sparkle-pire fall into the clutches of Dr. Muraki would be the best course of action ever....

Moving in

By: Matrix Refugee | Posted: October 17, 2009 | No Comments Posted

I probably need another blog like I need a hole in the head: I'm pretty busy on LiveJournal, but it always helps to have another place to throw ideas around on and see what sticks... I've joined DarkScribes since I'm looking for a good place to (eventually) post and archive my Eva-fics. FF.N is all right as a place to get a fair amount of readers, but it's popularity can be it's Achilles Heel. So many squee-nagers and Mary Sue-thors and OMG SHUGAH-HI!1111 writers and badficcers...

Predictions

By: Himonky | Posted: October 11, 2009 | No Comments Posted

Forgot to do this last week.

Baltimore over Cincinnati in a good one

Buffalo over Browns

Carolina over Redskins (is that an upset?)

Pittsburgh over Detroit

Dallas over Kansas City

Giants over Raiders

Philly over Tampa Bay

Minnesota over St. Louis

San Fran over Atlanta in a good one

Houston over Arizona

Denver over the pats

Seattle over Jacksonville

Indy over Tennessee

Jets over phins.

Bears on a bye D:.

Looking ahead...

By: Himonky | Posted: October 7, 2009 | No Comments Posted

I don't know what's with me today.

I think I've said before on here that I'm an integrative biology (IB) major planning to go into dentistry/orthodontics.  This implies graduate school, which over the last year I have been finding out may well be out of my reach.  My grades aren't good enough.

Why aren't they good enough?  Apathy.  I care about my grades, or at least profess to, but really when it's time to study the game is on or I spend time on my computer...anything.  I have great crunch time, but I can't get the A's I need in classes by studying 1-2 days before a test.  I have 2 next week and have been yelling at myself to get started now, but I just can't.  It might be the old "I'm afraid to try because I'll still fail" psychological perspective.

Chemistry and biology, the core classes of my major, suck.  And they don't really interest me.  I don't know what does, besides beer boobs and sports.  I'm lacking drive in my life, 110%.  See "writing, anything the last 2 years" for details.

I got laid last night.  I told her to give me a call/text today if she wanted when she was leaving.  I can't call/text her because then I seem emotional or needy.  It hasn't worked out in the past, trust me.  Anyway, when I got up today I strutted a bit, but then eventually came to realize that this girl has no reason to call me.  Sure, I fucked her good (minor hell yeah!), but we didn't even talk to one another before we started making out at the bar.  I talked to a bunch of other girls at this exchange, and last night my drunken self figured I had talked to this one (she knew my name and my year...I knew neither, which is always unsurprising).  So...not another booty call probably.

I feel like sex should fill this apathy hole in my life, but besides a smile on my face for a short time this morning it did nothing.  Masturbating doesn't hit the spot either.

This all harkens back to my essay on DS, where I talk about how I'm waiting for something to happen.  Something life changingly momentus, anything.  I'm begging for it.

But life isn't a movie.  Maybe another D on a test will pound that in, but I doubt it.